Saturday, February 21, 2009

Finally! I blog again! (My Job)

I cannot believe how long it has been since I posted a blog! So much for my attempts at using it as a journal! lol Oh well. The joy of life is that we can always pick up where we are and go again. So, I downloaded some new pictures onto my computer and will blog a few entries about the milestones that have gone on in our family the past few weeks...ok, couple of months. Sheesh! I always have to be so darn REAL about it. =)

So, what has kept me so distracted that I didn't take a minute to send out into cyber space an update of my life? Mostly, it has been my job. What a strange place I find myself in at this point in life. I never thought that I would be the one with the professional career and Tom would be working behind the scenes picking up what I can't get to. Yet, that is pretty much what our lives have come to right now.

And, I find myself having strange moments of awareness that our roles have completely switched. For instance, I rarely think about what is for dinner anymore. Tom will suddenly ask, "What would you like for dinner honey?" Thursdays are the only days I pick kids up from school anymore. It seems so weird to pull into the carpool lane and have the new aide not know which kid I am there for! We've only been at this school for 11 years now! You guessed it, Tom is the chauffer for most things right now. Another strange moment was when the other day, he was counseling me to take a break. "Go read a book honey." What??? Usually, you can't tear me away from a good book and the occasion of mom reading means ramen for dinner for a night or two.

I've also noticed that when I am with others, I don't know what to talk about anymore. The major part of my life has been work and work related stuff. How interested can someone else really be in how many people registered for our latest workshop, or whether or not our website is up to date? So, I find myself doubting every casual conversation I have wondering if I am boring people to death or if I am really listening to what THEY have to say.

I always thought I would be a SAHG...stay at home gramma. That is what I always thought I wanted to be. And I some degree. I discovered that I do find a great deal of satisfaction in completing a job well done at the end of the day. I also enjoy the knowledge that I have gained as I learn some very useful information about the business world. What I know is that I want to create that part of my life in such a way that there are plenty of SAHM, and SAHG moments. Because as fulfilling as my work is, and gratifying as it is to be a life coach and watch lives change before my eyes, the lives that truly matter to me are those of my family. I want to be a meaningful part of their lives and know that each moment I had with them was precious and full of love...and I want there to be plenty of those moments to look back on and remember!

I have learned much as I step into the professional world. The biggest thing I have learned is that nothing will ever match the joy I get from spending time with my family, and lovin' on my grandbabies, and reading to my son, and chatting with my girls, and snuggling with my sweetheart. So, thank goodness I have them in my life to tug at me and say...time to put the computer away mom! I want to eat! =)

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